and i like supporting him so very much. and i like trusting him and being in his arms when i can't do it on my own.
update:
i haven't been writing as much because i've been busy with family (last week was spring break), catching up with my wonderful boyfriend (just returned to campus), and trying to not hate ohio state (though it deserves all the dislike).
i really want to write, though. it's what keeps me alive, after all.
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but actually fuck this shit.
i will not be vulnerable, and i will not be weak.
i will close myself off from the world before anything breaks me.
i will not let anyone see what i truly feel.
fuck this shit.
six years, five months, five hours
i was raped.
i still think about it sometimes.
by accident
i fell in love/said goodbye
i don't belong/don't want to belong
i don't need anyone i don't need anyone i don't need anyone i don't need anyone i don't need anyone
i don't need anyone.
i don't need him
or him
i don't need you
to rip myself into shreds
i hate everyone
i am a great person but i have no friends here. i'll be there for you and listen to you and cook you food, but every time i do that for someone here they still get tired of me. the only one i have here is my lover; everyone else is two thousand miles away (my family, actual friends).
i'm not so sure there is a person in the world who hates ohio as much as i do. six years later and i still don't fit in. i have my college degree (what i came here for), but i'm still fucking here.
i was hired for a job three weeks ago but i'm still not working (paperwork, every-fucking-one is on vacation). our home is my solitary confinement, each day is an in
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