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Winter

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It is that time of the year when her mind is filled with evening dark skies and snow flurries. Sodium lights spill orange on black ice and the night is frozen in quiet. It's that time of the year when she's on her way through the wind and the harshness against her face to visit her friend in the hospital. He attempted suicide, so it's a must to visit him and entertain thoughts of being in his position.

It's cold and she misses her family. Any sort of New Year's resolutions are forgotten in crystals of mud underneath her boots.

In her mind she is back home in front of the Christmas tree and hoping and wishing that time could stop, that life could freeze if for but a few moments more. In her mind she does not miss her family because the ones hopelessly attached to her heart are in the same room.

It is that time of the year when the air is crisp and cold and reminds her of failure and scars and intentions gone wrong. So she does not sleep some nights because staring out the window and watching the delicacy of snowfall, the blanketing of pavement keeps her mind off the desperation. Yet some nights she realizes that she's equally obsessed with the trauma.

It is the season of intense emotion and pain because her friend tried to kill himself, she's falling in love with someone only half in love with her, Christmas was too short and religion is important again. God creates the silence of winter so that people like her can think and feel in solitude or confide in the friends that thought it was too cold to go out that night.

Skin taut and bitter with cold, snowflakes on her lashes, thighs numb because jeans don't retain heat, she shivers. She is in front of the hospital panting and watching her breath float, disappear. She imagines watching the night from inside from a patient bed with family and love as in front of the Christmas tree and the dinner table and home cooked food.

"Do you miss me?"
i like this a little more now. edited 2012.1.25
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